60th entry

It's time for a change. And I will start this off by changing the blog template that I've already used for many years. Even though I like the picture of my blog banner very much, but I'm too lazy (and stupid) to deal with HTML so I decided to just choose a template provided by Blogger LOL. Some of them quite nice also la. Life is like this, we will have to let go of something that we like because of many reasons. When you've tried your best to get or achieve what you want very badly but failed eventually , leaving things to fate is the only thing that we're capable of doing.

I found that many people blog to vent or get emotional, including myself. Here goes the fate of diary books lol. It's really a place for people to keep their secrets without having to worry about missing your blog entries (you might forget where you hid your personal diaries lol), control the people who can read your worries and emotion or stuff like that. Years later I can read back the old blog entries it's really a nice thing to do. It makes me miss my old life, my old friends, somewhere I can't get back to, somebody that I've missed forever.

Life after STPM isn't how and what I wanted it to be. Mainly because of money issues. And after all I'm still a teen(kononnya) who obeys mom's wish lol. I actually wish to meet up my high school friends more frequently and catch up with them because talking to them is one of the best things to do. I miss how we used to meet at school every single day, talking crap, laughing out loud and sharing silent moments. It's like the only purpose of going to school lol. Things can't get back to how it used to be and I doubt if I will ever meet awesome people like them in the future.

Anyways it's not as bad though. I feel like I'm back to my old lazy self who is so slumber to the extent that even myself also beh tahan. In another word, I lost my ability to enjoy being slumber LOL. See, I've grown up. This is good and bad at the same time. Good being I'm slowly transforming to insan yang boleh menyumbang kepada masyarakat lol bullshit and bad being I feel very eager to get something to do to prove myself a productive kid and feel upset for not being able to do anything in the end. 

Ok I'm going for a power job hunting journey next Monday.

And a trip on 31 December! I feel very excited about it but the excitement reduced a bit because of some reasons haiz. Anyway I'm still looking forward to going to a trip planned by ourselves for the first time. Yes the first time for me, if campings not counted lol. It's going to be a countdown with friends yo! Just forget all the unhappiness and enjoy ba.